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Monday, November 06, 2006 |
The one with the venting... So on Friday I set out to Nashville, TN to visit my buddy Crystal. The reason for my trip was that Joe Purdy was in concert with other artists and I was stoked to see him. Brittany wanted to ride with me and drop her off @ MTSU. No big deal, right? Not so. I ended up getting lost on the way to MTSU, and the people she was going to spend the weekend with were of absolutely no help. They didn't even offer to meet me @ an exit or offer any assistance in the matter. Once I finally got there, they tried to tell me how to get back to the interstate so I could get to Vandy. Got lost yet again. Sunday when I was leaving I told them to bring her to me. Brittany got all puffy and obviously was irritated that I even asked her friends to go out of their way to bring her to me. Nevermind that I went out of mine to drop her off when she is of no responsibility to me in the least! I was furious the whole way home. On top of my frustration with her. She rode with me for 4 hours there and 4 hours back. I dropped her off in Seymour, out of my way... yet again. Did not offer to pay any gas money or even say thank you!!! I was floored. Another layer to come, on her friends myspace she apologized to them for having to go out of their way to bring her to me. What the hell is this girls problem!!! She is nearly 18yrs old and should have at least a smidgen of consideration for me. After all that I had to deal with getting her there and back. Known, this kid for around 4 months mind you. Give me a effin break here!! Really!!! I can't stand inconsiderate punks! That is the very last time I will ever do her a favor again, no matter how small the next may be. It will not be don by me.
Posted at 04:19 pm by mallori
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Tuesday, November 08, 2005 |
The one with the delay... This is somewhat ammusing. Yesterday morning I went by my bank to deposit quit a large sum of money. Since it was such a large check and wasn't drawn on my bank they were putting a hold on it until next Tuesday. Previous to that deposit my account was too low for comfort. When it gets below $100, I don't like it. I like to make sure I always have money in my account. Back to the story. Steph wanted me to go with her to Knoxville last night to get her mom a birthday present. But of course, we made a few pit stops. There's this crazy shoe store with insanely cheap adorable shoes. However, me being uncomfortable with my account, I refrain from purchasing any. Then we set off to the mall, lots of cute things. Yet, the discomfort of finances is still quit prevelant in my mind. So, no purchases yet again. We get in the car and I tell her to surprise me with a restaurant, my eyes were closed. When I open them, we are at Bonefish. A great restaurant, somewhat pricey. Nonetheless, I get out excited to dine here. Sitting down, I have an idea. Thinking to myself, "you'd better call and make sure how much you have in your account just so you don't dwindle it all away before your money goes through." So, I call. The outcome of this call is affirmed that I have well over the amount I thought I had in my account because the check was processed earlier than expected. I was so teed, I had all that money and refrained from any shopping for my accounts beneffit! Oh, I was livid... and it was too late to go back to the mall, they were closed. When you truely get that ticked, you should pause for a moment and realize you have a problem with shopping. I think I'm going to join the SA meetings (shoppers anonymous). I'm now thinking, do I have plans tonight...no. Knoxville? Sure, why not! This is where my reality sets in, I am sick. My closet is so full that it's hard for me to move my hangers, I have quit a large closet mind you. Now thinking, I actaully but clotes or shoes or something every week. I'm not talking one item either....many, many items. I just got donated over half of my clothes to goodwill about 4 months ago and I had plenty of room in my closet. That room is now taken over by clothing, yet again.
Another great thing that happened. Rhonda called me yesterday and asked me to come to her cell group or at least try it. I think I will, it's next Monday at 7. Steph and Amanda S. are going to try it with me. So, it should be really good. I just think Rhonda would be good for me. She really keeps me accountable and is so encouraging and positive about everything. So kudos to her. Alrightie, I'm outie. Hah... have lots of giggles!
Posted at 10:30 am by mallori
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Monday, November 07, 2005 |
The one with the questions... I head out the last week of November to Florida for 2 weeks of training. I'm very excited and nervous in the same. This is a whole new chapter of my life. It's weird, this is who I will be from now on... a mortgage broker. Strange, huh? No more being a kid, I actually have to grow up for real now, I will have a ton of responsibility. Kind of nerve racking. I will be the head of an office. I'm going to have my own secretary... so strange! Someone is putting that much faith in me, why? What is it about me that she likes? What if I don't meet her expectations? What if I fail horribly? This is why I shy from new things... the fear of failure. Because I know what I do now, like the back of my hand. It's a groove I've been a part of for nearly 3 years now. I'm 20 yrs. old and have only had 2 jobs ever! This is scary for me. It's odd, because in the same breath of fear, excitement follows with a hint of reassurance. I sit and think of this new life being formed for me with the slightest effort as a lego tower but in the short time it took to build in that void, a lego palace, it is completely opposite of what it was... nothing. That's how I feel. This is my life, a blank canvas. And... it's being drawn on in such a haste when I thought it should take so much more time than the artist intends.... a new painting in a day? It's papostrious! I never would have thought my life would be transformed with such short notice. I'm not what you would call a spur of the moment kind of gal, given... I would like to be. But, I'm just not that way. I'm all about being prepared. The fact is, I wasn't prepared for this hastiness. I figured dinner... then she would weave me into her way of life in the course of a year. Not so! I had dinner and the day after she tells me to give my 2 weeks notice and be packed for Florida by the last week of November... oh my! I think I'm broke out in hives. I'm a very independant person, but the mere thought of staying in a strangers house for 2 weeks with her entire family, quit frankly I'm nauscious just with the thought. Comfort is what I know and like. Don't get these analegies confused with regret, not so. Just.... Okay here is a good example. My parents were going to buy me a new car last year. So I look all over to decide, I finally come to the conclusion of a Volvo S40. Cute, effecient, fun, fully loaded. Then the reserves set in... no more suv? No more Land Rover? Really? You sure? What about not being able to fit a lot of people in your car, you know you like to drive any time you go out with your friends.
This is what I do, talk my self out of things. I seriously have a problem. I can't even decide on a new car without getting stressed. Where does this come from? I remain calm on the exterior. Oh... but on the inside, I am FLIPPING OUT!! I can't even express to you the magnitude of this problem. I need a sedative just to function normally. The twist is.... nobody knows I'm like this. At least, I don't think they do. You know what, it may be split personality. Because independent is... no fear, new things all the time, being yourself, and you know... independent. I am these things... to an extent. It's just that stupid part of my brain trying to prevail just to prove it's the hero... you know, the weak cowardly kind. None the less, a hero. I refuse to let this part of me take presidence in my life. I am strong and independant!! I accept no other side of who I am. I ignore the fear and trample it with a victory not known to many. With a lap top in one hand and a credit score in the other I march into the world of mortgages! Get ready world, for the best damn mortgage broker this side of the Pigeon River! Oh the dramatics I apply to small stories! Okay, so.... play on playa!
Posted at 12:34 pm by mallori
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Friday, November 04, 2005 |
The one with the weirdness... So I went onto this guy's site today, "poetry" site. It's about teaching people how to write better... bologne! I've never taken any peotry classes or creative writing classes, and I write some great stuff. It all boils down to the talent being embedded into who you are. It's something you're born with. yeah... you can be taught to write better, but it will never be as good as someone who is naturally good at doing it. I've read some of Dave's writings, my old friend, and he has some really good stuff. And I don't think he ever took those classes. It's just about the makeup of the person that you are, that you were born to be. Because I've also read some stuff from a friend who always took those classes and her stuff wasn't nearly as good as any of mine, not to brag. It's just in the passion that you're born with. I'm a very passionate person by nature. Not because I choose to be passionate or want to be to impress someone, but because of how GOD made me.... passionate for a cause. I could ramble on about something to you that I care about for days and days. Because that's who I am, nobody taught me to be this way, or told me to be this way... I just am. Just like there are natural born athletes... that is not me! I pretty much suck at sports, don't get me wrong, I'll trash talk you into the ground. But as for the ability, it's just not there! All this to say, I was reading his writings, and.... seriously? He looks at them and thinks they're good? No way. Because his site goes on to say he's very talented and can teach anyone to have the talent that he has (or lack there of) if you just learn from him. Oh man.... what a joke. So, I guess my point is, stay true to who you were created to be rather than who you want to be like. Because the real you is better than the fake somebody else. If you're good at cooking, do it with a passion. If you're good at singing, sing with that passion. And even if you're good at cleaning, clean with a passion. We were all created to be individuals, so play on your indiviuality. Don't sell out just to be another coffee house, snapping fingers, poetry sitting, long hair hippy. Do what you love and you know you were meant for... go outside and throw that frisbee. Okay, I'm stepping off my soap box so I can see well enough to finish my work. Peace and love to all who keep it real!
Posted at 02:08 pm by mallori
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The one with the phat job... So... my meeting went well with Dawn. I got the job!! I am suppose to meet up with her again at 4:30 today. To go over all the details of what this intails. I'm going to be going to St. Pete for a week or two for training. She's looking for a place right now, as I type, to rent for office space. I am so excited about working with her. I prayed about doing this and I feel complete peace and I'm very much at ease. She just called me with a place that were going to look at. It's the strip behind the new remax building off Wears Valley. This job will have benefits and everything, I've never had a job that had all of that. I am so stoked!! Yay!! She told me to think if I knew someone that we could hire for a receptionist. So, I'm thinking.... I don't really know anyone that would want to leave their job now. Well, I'm getting off of here. Just thought I would put all this in here for reminder of how good God is.
Posted at 10:38 am by mallori
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Wednesday, November 02, 2005 |
I can not express enough, how much I hate Verizon Wireless!!! They called me again today about the $300 that I supposedly owe them. I faxed over my bank statement showing that it had in fact gone through. The girl even called me back to confirm it all. I got a call today saying if I didn't pay it my phone would be shut off. This was the FOURTH time that these devils have tried to charge me for this, that has already been paid! I swear, I wish I could be on tv to warn everyone about the horrors of the confusion of this company and their sucky customer service!!! VERIZON WIRELESS SUCKS SO BAD! THEY ARE THE WORST WIRELESS COMPANY EVERRRRR!!!!!!!
*I'm grinting my teeth and blood pressure is rising just writing this*
So, I have a meeting tonight about the mortgages. I met her earlier today, she seems really nice. I'm excited. I got off work early Monday at 12:30 and then I was off all day yesterday. I'm having to spruce up this cabin that a lady decorated in the village that looked like s**t!! I only had a thousand dollars to spruce it up though, man... I stretched that money. It looks way better now. Having those days off made me realize how much I despise my job. I really hope I get to head up this mortgage deal. It would be a great oppurtunity for me, no doubt. I'm ready to get out of this job, real quick. I'm just miserable here. But, I won't leave without knowing that I have somewhere else to work. That pays way better than I get now. I'm just sick of all the bull s**t that I have to put up with!!! You couldn't even know. Nasty men hitting on me, getting blamed for things someone else does, being around the most gross guys I've ever come across. Getting bored because he won't let me leave but, he has no work for me, so I just sit.... and sit... and sit. I hate it! It's going to drive me mad if I don't get out of here soon! So, hopefully I get the hook up with this deal. Thank you God for deliverance!!!
Signing out as....EXTATIC!!!
Posted at 04:38 pm by mallori
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The one with the bonfire... Last night was such a blast. We had a huge bonfire at the house, there were about 40 people there. We had chili and smores. There were some pretty random people there though, that was odd. None the less, still a lot of fun! We just kind of hung out on the deck, talking, eating, and socializing. Friday night I had sooo much fun. Amanda S, Chris, and I went to West town and saw Steph, Diane, and Mary Ann. So we all went to Wasabi. They are too much fun. When we were at the table there was another guy with us, I swear to you, he was a secret ageant. Steph, Amanda, and I all thought so. He was mid 40's, spoke 6 languages, and is in amazing shape. He went to college in Italy and lived in England for 10 years, said he was vice president for an energy company, right.... good cover. He spends a lot of time in Iceland, "setting up a new energy plant" Funniest thing of all... when a pan fell he went into defense mode, did some sort of karate stance, it was soo funny. Then we met up with Micah and went cosmic bowling. We left there around 1. We then ventured to Steak and Shake for some milkshakes. It was just a lot of fun, I didn't get home until 3:30 when I was suppose to be at misty's at 9:30 to babysit, she called that morning to cancel, praise GOD! Saturday Amanda S. and I went shopping again at Five Oaks all day then headed to her house for dinner and a movie, classic Saturday night fun. So that's the update on Mal's weekend, third person mentioning just for giggles.
On a different note. Church was really good yesterday. They did the suicide skit again that they did Wednesday. I don't really feel up to a recap on all this. There's some strange things going on, not in church though. In other areas, I'm not up to elaborating... but all is well, I suppose. Okay, so I'm off to the races.
Posted at 10:31 am by mallori
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The one with the meeting... My dad has some investors from Miami, FL that want to start a mortgage company here. Because real estate is huge in our area. The lady that wants to start it here owns a real estate company, mortgage company, and construction company... she's loaded! She was talking to my dad, because she owns some houses in the resort. She asked him if he knew of anyone that she could meet with to run the new office up here, he suggested me. When she comes into town, next week I think, I'm suppose to meet up with her about heading up the office. That could be some fat cash for me... salary and commision. All the owners in the resort would use me, plus I have several connections with contractors from my now existing job. I probably know 8 contractors or more... that are building communities, heck yes! Anyway, I would have to get my liscense and pass the test, dad said he will pay for all that for me. So this could be the beginning of a career for me. Who ever thought that I would start a career by the age of 20?! Because all of my job experience is office, so I'm a great candidate. I'm very organized and persuasive.... so.... sign me up. This could be an amazing oppurtunity for me. Just think, if she really likes me, provided I'm great at the job, I could move to one of her other offices or travel to find her investors property. How killer would that be?! I am soooo stoked!
I got my sweaters in that I was very excited about recieving, they're not as cute as they looked online. So Amanda S. and I are going to the mall tonight so I can exchange them for something else. What else... what else... what else.. Oh yeah, tonight's the bonfire at the resort and Nick will be there. The cute, funny guy I mentioned a couple days ago. So, I'm going to hang out with him for a bit tonight, I may invite him to go with us to the cornmaze on Saturday, he was sayin how he loves stuff like that. He doesn't really have a whole lot of friends, because he just moved here a couple months ago from out of state. He doesn't go to church either, so... what a good way to get him intwined with both, friends and church. I also have to spruce up a cabin in the resort this weekend. It's kind of bare, so the owner is paying me $300.00 to go shopping for him, which all should take a day, max. Heck yes I'll do it. I'm just excited about all the stuff I have lined up, thanks to GOD & dad. Well, got to jet... not really, just nothing else to say. Yes I do... were going to NYC in December, yeah yeah!!
Thank you Lord that I'm in your will and that I will not depart from it. I claim your favor on my life and that I will always give you praise for the transpiring events in my life. THANK YOU GOD!!
Posted at 10:21 am by mallori
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Thursday, October 27, 2005 |
The one with music and youth Last night was incredible! Jim preached on suicide. I'd say 70% of the youth went to the front. He said, if you have seriously contimplated suicide, come up front. I was kind of taken back by how my people responded. Before service, the leaders met in the prayer room to pray for that night, that was really cool too. They did a drama about suicide.
The synopsis: Tash, a young girl in youth (14), played a girl who was pregnant and her boyfriend left her. When her dad came home from work she was trying to tell him but he's "too busy." He got a phone call from his boss, he had to go back to work. She pleaded with him to wait, she had something important to tell him. He said whatever it was it could wait until tomorrow. She sits in her room, alone. Thinking to her self *aloud* that she's all alone. Nobody loves her, she's stupid, she messed it all up. Her kid would never have a daddy, no guy would ever love her, her dad never has time for her. While she's thinking all of this a demon comes out from behind her dresser reaffirming her doubts and hands her a gun. Then another one comes out telling her it's all over, show them your in control. * A strobe light comes on and you see the 3 moving all around, lights go out (pitch black) see a small light from the gun and hear a pop. She falls on the floor, DEAD.) Then they showed the stats on suicide. The response was crazy nuts. - not clapping, crying and realization-
It was real. There's not a whole lot of words to describe it. They may be doing it Sunday for the whole church. I never realized how many people deal with the thought of death. It's so infuriating, not sad. I get mad knowing the power the enemy has on peoples lives. I don't know... just pisses me off.
So, today I went to the Village to laminate some papers. *Village is the resort my parents own* There's this guy that works in the office there, he is too funny!! He can sound just like Napoleaon Dynamite, same mannerisms and everything. It is so hilarious! He is such a funny guy, cute too. *wink* He has a girl friend though, not that it matters. He's not married. It's fair game until there is a ring on the finger. That may sound horrible. But, that's my logic. The thing is, if your suppose to be with that person, I'm going to let another girl keep me from that, nah!! Not just any guy in general. Only if I know that this is the one. Not that I've felt that yet. Besides who says the "one" will even be in a relationship at the time, I hope not. Too much drama. Whew, could you imagine? I'd rather not!
The phone Amanda let me borrow to see if I like Cingulars service better than Verizons is phat!! It's so pimp!! Yeah... Her and I are going to work out today and then go hang with Jerm. He's one of my favorites. He's too cute, he makes me smile. I love him. Okay.. I'm gonna bounce-_-_-_-_
Signing out as... content for the day
Posted at 04:20 pm by mallori
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Wednesday, October 26, 2005 |
Last night Amanda S. and I met at the church for prayer. But.... we got side tracked, the youth was practicing their drama for youth tonight. Tonight is suppose to be a big to do. Jim is going to teach on suicide. ''They'' say that 95% of teens have contimplated suicide. Is that not crazy?! 95%!! When we were watching them do a run through last night, it wasn't even nearly as effective as it will be tonight. Because the sound and lighting wasn't all ready. But I still was crying, it is very emotional. I'm just believing in Jesus to get this through tonight with the teens!! It will be intense, that's for sure.
So, Amanda S. bought a membership to NFC so we could work out together. Last night when were leaving we were headed there, but.... my car wouldn't start. My battery was dead, second time in 2 weeks. I hadn't left my lights or anything else on. We called my bro and he said to take my car to Advanced Auto to get my battery tested. I made her go with me, because there's this creepy old man there that always hits on me. We went in and it tested, bad. I had to buy a new one, it was seventy somethin bucks! What a rip, most batteries are like 40 bucks. Of cours mine is more, everything on my car is expensive. I need to rethink my car choices when I get a new one. Anyway, when I was buying it, it came with a 3 yr warranty. The man asked me for my number, then he asked if he could keep it for himself. I just ignored him... man, he's like late 40's, no lie. I always go in there to get power steering fluid becuase my pump is going bad. But, of course, it's going to cost a thousand or a little over to replace it. So I just keep it all liquired up! Smart huh? Saves me money. Because I plan on getting rid of it soon anyway. From there we went to get cookies and went to my house and made tham and my dad made us some cappucinos. We had fun. We just sat around and goofed off. Oooh, ooh.. all my stuff came in from the market in ATL. It's all bigger than I remember it being when I bought it. I think everything there was on a large scale. I'm talking huge. The candletsicks won't even fit on my shelves, they're too tall. But the sconces that I got look great on either side of my bed.
I need to get off here. I have to completly revise a layout that was done. Whoever did it, didn't think it all the way through, hhhmmmhhh... *cough* that would be... hhhmmmmhh *me*
I just caught it when I was adjusting the prices for the log furniture, it seemed off. Because it is. Oh wait, this is hilarious. Last night I went over to Courtney's before I went to church. We were on ebaums world watching this clip. It was like 7 guys in an suv, coming back from a batchelor party. One fo the guys was asleep. So all the guys just started screaming and the one asleep woke up screaming, panicking... he squeezed his hamburger all over the place. It was just soooo funny. We watched it like 20 times. Then we made Pastor come watch it with us, he was rolling. It was very amusing. Yesterday was his bday, by the way. He's 45 now. Okay, so I really do need to get off of here now, sseeee yyyaaaa......
Posted at 10:57 am by mallori
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